
The impulse
Sometimes, searching for something that would give me back the push to start a life with purpose, I would head to a park for hours to feel, in the touch of nature and its sounds, a calm that let me be alone with my thoughts. I wanted to find a message in my mind—one of those signs we believe God will give us in a miraculous or even magical way, if the term fits. I would take my bicycle and, sometimes, pedal for more than three hours. I came face to face with my reflections and, deeper still, with pain and sadness. Pedaling made me scream on the inside, releasing everything I was feeling. My mind filled with thousands of